HOW DO I GET THROUGH THIS?
This is what I feel like right now. I'm standing on the shore line and this huge wave is crashing down on me. I'm drowning but I can't get up. The pain just seems to just be getting worse as time goes by. I hurt so bad. Why did it have to be my mom? How do I go on w/out my mom? I hate that fact that I have to go on with my life w/ out her. It is so unfair. This pain is so unbearable at times. I don't want this life. I don't want this to be real. My brain is just not able to comprehend this. Maybe I'm gonna have a breakdown. Maybe I haven't even started to grieve because then it would make it real. I don't want it to be real. I hate this world sooooo much. I hate everything anymore. Someone please stop this pain. Isn't there a magically pill for this? The only thing that keeps me going is my daughter Hailey. She is my world and I will do whatever I have to to keep her from ever feeling this kind of pain. And if I ever lost her, then I would be out of here. I feel so lost right now. I don't even know if I'm making any sense. I don't even know how I'm even typing. Well I guess I'll go to bed and have the joy of knowing that when I awake tomorrow, my mom will still be dead...........T
MOMMY FOREVER
1/10/58~1/23/05
posted by Tasha at 12:26 AM
1 Comments:
Hi,
I saw your blog at Rosie's site. I read what you wrote, and I would like to give you a few thoughts.
I think most of us would like to think our Mom's will live forever.
My Mother and Father are both dead, and a day does not go by that I do not think about them. I have those days where I think I would give just about anything to have five more minutes. But we never get those five more minutes, and I think what my Mom would have said to me....and that is "Sarah"
I will always be in your heart wherever I am. I know there is nothing we can say to make the pain go away. But I do know in time the pain will be different, it won't be the same. Please take care.
Shalom,
Sarah
8:46 PM
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